Yes I know I'm slackin...

I've SLACKED a lot on this blog. A lot of it had to do with whatdaya know, high school kind of drama.

That and cs 12 is HELL sometimes and with a math professor that barley knows how to teach... gah. and if it's not cs12 homework, it's creative writing hw... go figure, but i'll admit i do enjoy this class a lot! :D

Housing is okay, I think I've finally come to a decision on what I'm doing for sure on housing which is good since I've been "kicked out" of my original apartment, which is part of this whole drama shite.

And because of the fun stuff lately, I've just been keeping busy trying to get my GPA up... :[ boo you freakin GPA

but must say, thank you for the music Derek. really did help I was actually afraid it was going to be like a screamo by the title though. (go ahead and look at me in shame for not knowing Primal Scream).

Now I'm just looking forward to moving out of the dorms and getting to bigger and better in my life. It really is starting to get better now that I've started to just go to class and then spend the rest of my time in my room but I do leave to go hang out with some people still, but it is just more hanging out with engineering guys and the amazing girls i met on A side! :D

That and trying to figure out new things to do with my computer... like I found ialertu for my mac and it is pretty damn cool if I do say so myself, even though it ends up making my computer like a car... haha

and this polaroid option, pretty fun shit! :D

see! it's looks like it was taken with the favorite polaroid camera. hehe

and then some of them are kinda cool cause they come out with finger prints and stuff.

but ehh, just waiting for summer now.

My Crazy Damn Life

It's a to do list for this week, and just wanted to finally post something again.

Thursday May 6th 2010

1. QUIZ on inheritence and polymorphism

2. FIX programing assingment 4

3. go to Muzo's office hours to hopefully fix said programing assignment

4. DON'T fall asleep during Creative Writing

5. go see Math professor about midterm (hopefully...)

6. STUDY FOR ECON MIDTERM

7. CS SI SESSION

8. Put together Creative Writing assignments

9. Pack for home

Friday May 7th 2010

9 am. CW Discussion

10 am. STUDY FOR ECON/EAT

11 am. ECON DISCUSSION

12 pm. Math lecture

1 pm. STUDY FOR ECON

2 pm. ECON MIDTERM

3 pm. HOME??

4 pm.

5 pm-9. Finish/Submit LAB 6/CODE-LAB

9pm. Finish Lab 6

10pm CREATIVE WRITING HOMEWORK

11 pm sleep

Saturday May 8th 2010

9 am - 11 am CREATIVE WRITING HOMEWORK / Laundry

11 am - 11 pm PROGRAMING ASSIGNMENT numero 5

Sunday May 9th 2010

Get back to R*side early to take tour of off- campus apartments because I HAVE NO PLACE TO LIVE NEXT YEAR ANYMORE. AND I LOSE $100!! LOVELY...

LIKE I CAN AFFORD THAT SHIT...

Monday May 10th 2010

1. Last Payment to keep living in a dorm with some ______ people. fill in the blank and i give you a huge congrats if you get this correct

2. Put Together Creative Writing MidChapBook due on TUESDAY!!! make it pretty!

fml why does it always come down all at the same time.

and to top it all off, time of the month i'm thinking, and I want summer, and I'm ready to move out, and I think I may be failing a class this quarter... goodness. I just can't wait to get all this over with already... :/

all i wanna do is sleep, all i have to do is homework.

What I want to do is play video games and run around having a good college time, but at this moment that is not possible and I'm okay with that.

I've now missed a hike to the C and a trip to the beach and oddly I'm okay with it now because I've come to terms that I will always have to put school work before fun. And by putting school work before fun, I make most of the time I have.

I'm glad to have realized that even though I may not have many people to realize on here, I do have some amazing people in many different places that care enough about me and I care the same about them, that I don't need these people that keep me down and keep me from succeeding.

Keep Away from those who try to belittle your ambitions. Small people do that, but the really great make you believe that you can become great.

-- Mark Twain

Thank you to the people who have believed in me and pushed me and helped me every step of my life.

Thank God for Spring Break!

It's been making me think, this spring break. for one, I'm glad I have it.

for two, I'm kind of excited to start the new quarter, cause I wanna start anew.

That and I'm thinking about taking a dance class! :]

YAYAYYAYAYAYAYAY! but it's also $25 so we'll see about that, but there are some free classes that seem like a nice time away from the hall if you know what I mean. and anyway...

I posted this on facebook a while back now, and I'm proud that I still have it up. but thought that I'd always post it on here since I've been so behind but I'm actually excited and hopefully these new things would actually be some fun.

So, if you don't know, Winter Quarter 2010 was not at all that much fun. If it wasn't homework and other work related things, it was drama and other "fun" crap I'd rather not bother to repeat, unless you want to go into details with me, send me a message and be ready to read a nice long essay. While some of it may even seem trivial, it has gotten me to rethink this whole college thing. I've realized that, like all the other times I've moved, I'm not truly myself. I think finally staying put and schooling with the same people from middle school to high school graduation helped me come out more and be more outgoing. Coming into college, I felt that I was going to be able to do the same and at this moment I feel that i've still been hiding a lot that comes out when I'm talking with people from home. So next quarter, Spring 2010, I have decided I'm going to do things a little different and actually try to enjoy college life instead of remaining cooped up and not doing anything about it. My Spring Quarter Resolutions: 1. Not let people get to me or walk all over me - I feel that I've allowed people to not just bug me, but get under my skin and cause my blood to boil. Next quarter, all the people who I have worried and gotten upset about I will no longer care as much as I do today. While this may not sound hard, but it will be for me because I like to not leave people behind or let people I care enough about to screw themselves over, but it is also time for me to begin to think about my own education first. 2. I am going to go to a party! - This I ask of anyone, get me out of the dorms and classrooms and get me to party. Get me out of doing the same thing every week, the same exact things. In high school, I already did exactly the same and I don't regret it, but I want to be able to do something else. I'm in college I need to go to at least one while I have time, and this year maybe the only year I can afford to do so. 3. I am going to a club - I've promised myself this from even before school started. I want to go to a club and have fun. I want to see what it's like and just enjoy the night for once that isn't just a movie and pjs or tv and facebook. 4. I will join a club and keep involved with it. - While I am in Katipunan and it has been fun, I want to meet new people that are also going to be focused on school and going to drive me to keep going with my goals in life. I found a group, found many different people actually, at North that would do the same for me, but I don't have my North High friends here to do the same and I need friends outside of my hall. (FOR LEILANI: SHOULD I STILL JOIN CIRCLE K?) 5. I will keep up my gpa - As much as I want to stay loose and have fun, I do need to keep my GPA up and this is to remind me to keep working hard and not slow down just because summer is on the way soon. 6. I will stay true to myself -- the geeky, nerdfighter, harry potter loving, heart-on-my-sleeve person. - This is like 5 and is something I want to make sure that I stay true to and remains the same. People tagged in this, I tag you because I trust you and I know you will guide me the right way. You guys have treated me as equals and told me when I was wrong and helped me get through all these hard times that I don't want college to change my personality. I don't mind that college may change my views on politics and different social ideas but don't let it take away the one thing I always keep hidden from many people and let me remain the friend and person you guys know I can be. If you have read this far, thank you. really the people tagged in this make my life amazing. College has not been all bad, so don't get that idea. I've enjoyed many things and I've enjoyed the people I've met through Engineering and enjoyed the good times in the dorms. But at the same time, I haven't been all to happy this quarter either.

I just want to be happy again.

I want to be wanted, not asked because of pitty.

I want you to want me.

I need something to do with my mind besides homework and test.

I want to stop thinking about the problems.

I want to enjoy life.

I just want to be happy and feel wanted.

Yay for Comments!

This was going to be titled so differently, but then I found I had comments! yay! ;]

so thanks for them you who do/have read. that was nice to see! :]

but anyways, I've slightly changed my news years resolution.

Instead of blogging EVERY day, at LEAST 3 times a week... on a good week anyway. Midterms and finals well that might not be as possible... haha

At the same time, I plan to go to the gym at LEAST 2twice a week.

So far so good. :]

Dorm life, as much as it is good to be back, also means the stress is gaining. I can tell. SO MUCH READING AND SO LITTLE SLEEP!! :[

bleh bleh bleh bleh.

BUT SOMETHING GOOD IS COMING! :] HOMECOMING!!

and Heat music festival! ;]

The hall is also beginning Assassins.

Everyday there is a safety item and each person has someone they're in charge of killing. and the spoon is the weapon. and can only kill them with the weapon when they don't have their safe item on them. There are some other rules like when you can kill someone and can't and ect. but I'm also pretty excited. We'll see how this turns out! :]

The Game of hiding Jamiroquai continues.

This was completely Kelly's idea that hiding spot. He was missing for a while though but Amber finally found him with a lot of hints.

"I swear he's here... Oo, A quarter!"

And it's Anfoknee! :] with a PANDA cup!

New Years Resolution Already FAILED...

I told myself I was going to blog every night. I kind of doubt it's possible, especially b/c my hall is always up so dang late and once homework starts to kill me again... Which I know it will. Especially CS 10.

but since I've been gone, Finals week was hell.

Winter Break was nice. and i feel so much fatter cause of it.

WENT to the beach! :]

Sarah's Debut was fun. good times! :] Sleepover and Buster...

Karaoke and Smart Water and Fro Yo

Christmas I got money AGAIN!! :] YAY!

Grandma and Grandpa had their 50th anniversary. It wasn't too bad except for $100 WATER!!! WTF... and my uncle always taking the food before I could reach it...

And went to the Snow! :] This place was on the way to Lake Taho. and was during the 10 days in no cal.

Moving back into the dorms kind of sucked. Means no more wii and Band Hero and wifi and unlimited food, and a big bed.

But I was glad to be back after my family went home and it was just me with the dorm hanging. It was as if we've never left. It was good to be back to see everyone and such.

There's a new member of B3, she's pretty cool and she's fitting right in.

First day of class was well tech. yesterday and wasn't bad at all. I'm scared for Wednesday, that's going to be one hell of a day... I hate labs already. 3 hours of class... straight! for lab anyway.

We'll see how his all works out...

and to close out 2009 I'm stealing this from *Donna!!*

2009: In the beginning

Where did you bring in the New Year? in Torrance.
Who were you with? Family
Did you kiss anyone at midnight? Family
Did you make any resolutions? none that I remember

2009: Your love life
Did you break up with anyone? nope
Did you get anything for Valentine’s day? candy
Did you meet anyone special? nope

2009: Friends and enemies
Did you meet any new friends this year? Yes. Thanks to College and that my dorm is social.
Did any of your friendships end? Feels like it but nothing like I hate you and i'll never talk to you kinds
Did you dislike anyone? YES
Did you make any new enemies? Not sure.
Did you resolve any fights? YES
Who was your closest friend? I like Donna's Answer... but mine DAMSLE
Who did you grow apart from? Many people it feels like, thanks to college again
Do you have any regrets when it comes to your friendships? some.

2009: Your birthday
Did you have a cake? yes i did costco
What did you do for your birthday? pool party, actual day was disney world
Did you have a party? yes
Did you get any presents? my graduation/birthday party
If so what was the best thing you got? I got some nice shirts! :]

2009: All about you
Did you change at all this year? I agree with Donna's statement about becoming cynical. I have changed I think.
Did you dye your hair? Noe
Did you get your hair cut? Yes
Did you change your style? not really just shorter than usual.
Were you in school? Yes. Senior year and Freshmen year
Did you get good grades? 3.0 and above good then yes
Did you have a job? no
Do you drive? no
Did you own a car? yes
Did anyone close to you gave birth? No one close, but old friends did.
Did you move at all? to UCR yes
Did you go on any vacations? To FLORIDA! :]
Would you change anything about yourself now? Yes

2009: Wrap up
Is 2009 a good year? I see 2009 A VERY GOOD YEAR! :] Senior year, graduation, college, and just so much more was done than I typically did.
Did 2009 bring any new insights? Many actually.
Do you think 2010 will top 2009? Not sure, but it should be fun! :]

"**taken from Linda, whose blog I frequent (however, it is on tumblr and we cannot cross pollinate"