FINALL it's almost over

I can't wait for the first year of college to finally be over, or more like move out of the dorms. They're right when they say it ONLY takes one person to ruin an entire year.

and at least i can say i know who my true friends are.

and seriously, if you wanna know something, why don't you just ASK how hard is that... stupid people...

Fall 2010 Schedule! :D

fun stuff! haha

watch me kill myself slowly... 2 math classes and 2 science classes. woot woot

first time without ANY BREADTH classes! :D

I believe...

It was a Power Write in Creative Writing today and i feel I didn't do it justice in class, so here goes

PowerWrite 6/1

I believe in a friendship that means pulling a friend out of their home to go to the movies and then end up at BJs to watch the Lakers game, I believe in dancing and singing and jumping around my room to music in the middle of the night, I believe in staying up past midnight when you have an 8 am lab, I believe that someday something will get you if you piss someone off, I believe in holding your head up high after you've been beaten, I believe in not letting other people continue to beat you and put you down, don't let them win, never let them win because you're just as strong and you can win if you have the desire to, I believe in never letting the words of others make you quit at something that is challenging, I believe the best kind of learning is to learn something new and different, not the old stuff, not the stuff we've been forced to cram into our minds since we were in kindergarden, learn something different, something new something that proves that all we needed to know we learned in kindergarden, I believe in one god the father almighty creator of heaven and earth, I believe in not following the bible to a t, God gave me a mind, let me use it, let me explore and let God guide me through my troubles and my faults, I believe in love not boyfriend girlfriend love, but love from friends and love from family, the love that always is pushed to the side and ignored on valentines day, the love that you get from helping a man that is struggling by giving him a dollar or the love you get from friends as they try to show how that person hurting you is blank blank blank, fill in bad word here, I believe that Harry Potter has a deeper message and no matter what can never be compared to Twilight, I believe that people are all beautiful, but I still want to be skinnier, I believe people change and can become worst than they first appear, I believe that all truth is not the full truth, I believe that people can be stupid, I believe that I've only begun to learn who I am and will only truly find myself with the help of people at my side to push me and help me grow into a person I want to become, I believe all people have a part of themselves they hate or despise or wish they were something else, I believe that a people should have the right to choose their partner, because they have the right to be happy, I believe that drinking everyday of the week is stupid, especially if you're paying for all of it and only drinking in the dorms, go to a party you fool! I believe relationship involve work and dedication, I believe that staying up all night to console a friend is a better use of your time than sleeping, I believe in staying up all night to do homework because I can sleep when I'm dead, I believe in expression yourself and that showing that you're a little geeky or nerdy is a good thing. I believe creativity is important to keep the mind from becoming the burnt fry in the frier.

I always do this to myself.

Yet another assignment is due tonight and look what I'm doing...

yup

messing around with iphoto again... haha

I've realized though, I think I'm finally finding myself again. I really thing the beginning of the year I lost myself by wanting to fit in, and now. I don't care. I'm just me now! :D

I hope anyway haha

This weekend was amazing though!!

I watched Prince of Persia with half of DAMSEL, LAKERS game at BJ's with PAZOOKIES! :D

i think i forgot to take a picture of them though... sadness right there. but they were good!

and then...

I ran into my seniors!! well 2/3s of them

Then was off to Border to study with Julie for old times sake.

cute guy alert!!! of course i was leaving at the time... boo to that. haha

no picts though...

and dad used the BBQ and we had lobster tails and steak geez it was good to be home this weekend!

Today was nice lazy day too

I pretty much just packed to go back to UCR. like i wanted to... :[ no i don't wanna go where there is stress and hw...

but hey look where i'm at...

but ended up going to eat at Tyler Mall and yay for pretzels and family time. alex got this toy cat from McD's and then when it purred, dad teased sam if it was bower. long story short, she took too long to respond and realized he was teasing her about her bowser impression when he would play Super Mario Galaxy. only sami. haha

but HARRY POTTER NEW UP THE WAZOO! :D

In case you don't wanna know what everyone looks like 19 years later... haha don't look at the next pic. haha man it's been crazzy! i even spotted a difference in draco, one time he's got a mustache another day GONE! lol i've looked at too many picts...

but the kids are so cute!!! :D

but I hope at 37 I don't even up looking THAT old... ehh

I just saw this from Snitch Sneeker. Nice to know Rob Patt isn't a complete douche from the fame of being a shinning vampire! haha and yay Taylor! :D

And I can't wait for July just for this! :D

I saw this earlier today an thought it was too funny.

Friday Friday Friday

So I'm writing this when I should be finishing my creative writing 56 project that is due online in 12.5 hours now.

I'm feeling the laziness kick in oh so much!!

This weeks been up and down for me though.

Emotionally and because of my such little amount of sleep.

If you haven't heard the story, well then I guess we either

if ( have not seen each other since graduation and I miss you SO much )

need to talk soon so I can tell you all about college;

or

else if ( maybe I don't want to talk to you anymore )

because you killed all my trust in you;

or

else if (You've been hiding under a rock and still decide not to come out)

{

if ( you want to know && don't wanna come out )

give me your address to your hidden rock;

}

else if (you just don't care)

that's fine too, but I'm still ranting about it;

haha man CS is taking over my life so badd!!

But I've just been distracted by a man cleaning all of the windows in the hub...

gah whatever. I'd take a picture, but it's kinda awkward to have to hold my computer and try to take a picture of the dude cleaning the window.

But yes this weeks been kinda crazy. I loved the fact that I got to see the harry potter actors all dressed up for the epilogue and at the same time, wish I didn't see it. I'm torn by the fact I know what to expect but I'm so excited to see how this story finally ends on film. It's going to be amazing and just gives me a feeling of a child at Disneyland.

Besides that, CS is killing me, so much work and I need to finish my programing assignment this week. which then reminds me I need to turn in my lab. f my life!

I'm also been moving stuff around like crazy! I'm so ready to move out now. Just kinda done dealing with all the people in the dorms... If I learned anything from dorm life, it's WHO TO TRUST and who is actually worth my time.

I don't know but I kinda wish I did apply to more schools last year. While I love many of the people I've met here, I also feel that there are so many people here that are just too stupid for their own good. I mean there is a time for playing and having fun, but these people don't seem to do any of that. I'm not going to name names because I'm not stupid and remember that blog post from Jean and how she was talked about like crazy because of it.

I'll let them talk, whatever because I don't think of a lot of them as friends anyway ( i mean come on, none of them where there for me when I needed it the most and that's not a friend and if they were, they were doing it for information so they could "be in the know"), but I won't be giving names... that's my little secret against them... maybe I truly like you but can't get close because you're closer to them, maybe I'm just a fake nice to you, or maybe I deeply despise you yet still give you that smile as you walk by but I could also JUST deeply despise you.

that and who knows if they actually read this. even if they do, hope this gets the message across to them that hey! maybe you finally crossed someone that isn't going to go for your shit any longer and you need to grow up, get out of high school (cause I'm sorry that either high school sucked for you or you didn't have much of a life in high school that you're looking for a high school environment in college), and suck it cause I ain't your bitch no more.

Gahhh okay whatever. But I gotta say, I love creative writing just because it's actually gotten me interested in writing in this blog again and it's really been a good way to vent lately.

** to the people who did help me through EVERYTHING. You guys are truly angels in my eyes. While we all have flaws, you guys are true friends for being there for me and have taught me who my true friends really are. You guys have kept me sane, kept pushing me to move forward, and if I didn't have you and had parents that raised me to be strong, I might have been one of them girls on the news who killed themselves from bullying.

So I'm grateful that we met and you became my friend and that we talk and that I can count on you.

to end this on a good note, I haven't said this to many people but

I'M GOING TO HAWAII THIS SUMMER FOR THE FIRST TIME!!!! YAY! :D

SO excited for my friend big family vacation that wasn't just to nor cal.

Why do I always post before CS quizzes

That's an easy one, I'm avoiding my work to mess around. I think I'll go study now.

And I need to finish my Creative Writing essay tomorrow and un-sign my housing contract tomorrow. Hopefully I do both.

I know for sure housing. We'll see about Creative Writing. But I should to go show my TA once more before it's due Friday at 11pm

Riju came by Riverside today. It was fun, hanging out with Riju and Adam again. I never really think I'd say it, but life surprises me. We've all changed because of new experiences but conversations were still the same kind, they talk most of the time and I just laugh.

We headed to the UV, had dinner, and I got this guy! :D

Bandana was from battle of the halls, i slapped a fellow engineer. hehe

I have CS quiz in less than 30 mins and I'm writing a blog!

Short and to the point though... I want summer.

But I need to get through 3 more weeks before that is even possible.

I'm ready to move on out for the summer and meet up with people to talk about college that i haven't seen since graduation. It should be exciting. I write this as I listen to Testarossa Overdrive (SebastiAn Remix) how I got this, good question i don't even know but it's good.

I need a hair cut too... :/ anyway back to CS. We're learning about recursion, calling a function in it's self until it hits a base case.

yeup fun sheit.

making a snowflake this week for the programing assignment, I'll post a picture once I finish that up.